Michael Avila's TMA 457 Blog

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For this project, we will primarily using clips of ourselves performing verbatim interviews. The purpose of this is to honor those in the interviews and bring the text to life with our performance. This footage will be broken up between different sections including: what was lost, what was gained, life before, during, and after. We hope this keeps the audience engaged. We will also be using videos of Matt walking and having it transition into landscape footage. This is to reflect the feeling of being lost and like there is no set path. We will be coupling this with "Where the Sidewalk Ends" by Shel Silverstein to emphasize the idea of coming to the end of what we know and stepping out into the unknown.

Link:  https://docs.google.com/document/d/1BJznnD_N-HKQzOjN7oKeJXvdgsERoHWI59X5xNKbWis/edit?usp=sharing For this project, we have decided to use mostly underscoring music to intensify the mood of the performance and help with transitions. There will be soundscape elements of Matti walking on a sidewalk to create a throughline. We will be beginning with a video definition of the word 'loss' spoken with a computer-generated voice . This voice will be used throughout the video because it is engaging and unique. We have decided to end the video with ocean sounds because the vastness and universality of loss.

Job - Painting by Leon Bonnat https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Job_(biblical_figure)#/media/File:L%C3%A9on_Bonnat_-_Job.jpg Lost everything, but did not lose faith When David Heard - Composed by Eric Whitacre, Performed by BYU Singers https://youtu.be/GdrwWN_SN_M Loss requires grieving Loss Definition Video https://youtu.be/-WoyfiB67iU There are multiple definitions of loss

Key moments: Philosophy on loss: Changed because of pivotal moment Study of Buddhism Suffering is inevitable Change is constant *End of suffering ends when you accept reality Newfound sense of peace about loss Loss in pivotal moment Trust, husband, partner, best friend, a life that we created together *I lost myself Gain *Appreciation of self, see and feel value Strength: to find purpose again Tenacity and fierceness to never allow some to treat me the way I was treated Coping Continued in life/routine Eating Disorder, alcohol Family Life before Routine Marriage had ups and downs *I started grieving my marriage when I found out my husband was not living up to the vows he made me *Life during *It was complete hell I was empty You could see the life draining out of me slowly "Things will get better in time" I hated that answer so much Life after It's hard to say when was after I hated seeing someone else's last name that had ...

https://soundcloud.com/michael-avila-111233190/julia-verbatim-interview/s-VYLho98uJVx INTERVIEW QUESTIONS Focus: loss What’s a physical object you lost that you still haven’t forgotten?  What is your philosophy on loss? How to handle it?  What pivotal moment was a big moment that changed your life?  What did you lose after that moment? Do you feel like you have gained anything from this? And if yes, what is it?  How did you cope with that moment?  What was your life like before it?  What was it like during it?  What was it like after?  What came into perspective?  How is your life now? What is your current experience of loss with the current pandemic? Interviewee: Interviewee is a 25 year old female living in Hawaii. She was a former member of the Church and has done some research into Buddhism. She is engaged. She is a licensed cosmetologist. She is middle class.